Making big life decisions… 

If there’s one thing I’m bad at it’s making a decision. Where to go for dinner. What to wear out. What lipstick to choose. Obviously not the most vital of life choices. 

But now I’m at that big age in life where shit is getting very real. A week on Tuesday I finish my 4 years at uni. I have to move back home and become an adult. Complete with job and a whole new grown up life outlook… hopefully!

So now instead of having my path already carved out for me I have to decide what I want to do with my life. Where do I want to live? What do I want to do? Do I want to stay with my boyfriend?

It’s literally terrifying me. Because what if I make the wrong decision and mess everything up? 

But I think that some decisions you already know the answer. It’s just admitting it to yourself that’s the issue.

Lauren x

October Favorites!


How is it November? I know everyone’s saying it but still, this year is flying by. Literally preparing myself to get the christmas tree up!

Anyway, these are the things I’ve been loving this month!

Beauty:

  • Mac Fix+

I bought this for the hype, not sure what its purpose was. But now im obsessed. My favorite thing to use it for is to intensify my eye shadows, making them slightly tacky as well so they stay on longer.

  • Smashbox fusion soft lights

This is another one that I couldn’t figure out its’ use (see a theme here). I mean in my defence, it doesn’t have a name like highlighter or face powder. I tried it as a highlight and it wasn’t as pigmented as I am used to (that champagne pop has spoiled me). I read some where people use it as a bronzer and powder, and I am in love. It sets my skin, while giving it some warmth and also giving a subtle all over shimmer. LOVE. Such an underestimated product.

  • bh Cosmetics brushes

I got this set on holiday but i’ve seen it avalible in lots of places here in the UK too. Its so cheap, contains ten brushes that vary from face to eyes. I love the foundation one, a flat top kabuki thats so soft and blends so well. They brushes are really good quality and you really get a lot for your money.

Perfume:

  • Issey Miyake L’eau D’issey

You know that perfume you’ve been after for ages, spray all over yourself every time you hit debenhams and wish you could afford. Well this is that perfume for me, and I treated myself on holiday as it was so much cheaper. Its a different quirky smell that smells different after its settled but i love it so much, my new signature scent.

Music:

  • Rockabye baby – Clean Bandit, Sean Paul and Anne Marie
  • My Way- Calvin Harris
  • Shoutout to my ex – Little Mix
  • The Greatest – Sia ft Kendrick Lamar

Others:

  • Yoga

I always used to practice yoga everyday, but with holidays and moving house and third year at uni, its took a back seat for a few months, I had a few shitty weeks with anxiety lately so I did a few yoga youtube videos and I completely fell back in love with it. I’d forgot how calm and refreshed I feel after, and how unfit I feel now haha.

  • Autumn

As much as I miss the sun and summer, I have to admit there’s something cosy about the dark nights and snuggling up with hot chocolate under a mountain of blankets. Plus all the good TV starts coming on now, hibernation it is.

Lauren x

Anxiety: Am I a drama queen or am I going mad?

Hey guys…

It’s been soooooo long since I posted that I half thought I was going to give up. My summer was so filled with super holidays and craziness that I didn’t have time to even think about blogging.

But here I am, back at uni, final year and freaking the hell out. And as I lay in bed last night in physical pain wondering who would possibly understand what this felt like, I thought why not write about my anxiety on my blog. Maybe one of you might read it. Hell maybe you even might relate. Who knows.

So yeah. I have anxiety. I’m not properly diagnosed or anything but i’ve been struggling for the past couple of years and toying with the idea of doing something about it.

I am a full on worrier. I worry about things most normal people wouldn’t think twice about. And i let it build up until it seems huge, and I can’t see a way out.

The main thing for me is the physical pain that anxiety causes, that most people don’t understand. When i’m panicky it hurts to breathe and move. My body tingles and my chest throbs, and I can hear my heart beat so loud and fast. And then I panic more obviously.

Half of me thinks I am going crazy. Full on  nutter. The other half thinks I am a drama queen and need to chill the hell out.

Isn’t that everyone’s views on  mental health though? No one seems to accept it as a part of life, something to deal with head on rather than shy away from?

Everyone has something that they freak out about. Mine just happens to be everything, haha!

But sometimes I wish I knew there was someone else out there, having the same chest pains and the same sleepless nights.

All I can do now is deal with it as best as I can. And light as many scented candles as humanly possible. And do as many yoga classes as my body can take.

Let me know if any of this is remotely relatable to you, or if you have any advice you can share.

Lauren xx

10 reasons why it’s fab to live alone!


Hey guys! Hope you’ve had a lovely bank holiday weekend! I went back home this weekend which I love because it means I can see my family and actually spend time with other human beings which I do rarely now I’m on my placement living on my tod. 

Not gunna lie most of the time I struggle being on my own. Mostly because my anxiety flares up and I start going crazy talking to myself. But there are some perks which you start to miss when you go back to living at home. 

1. You can spend all night having a huge Netflix binge and with no judgement.

2. You can eat what ever you like…. Ice cream for dinner anyone?

3. Your rooms can be as messy as you want…you know your phone charger is under three layers of clothes.

4. You can spent 80% of the day in pajamas.

5. “Omg I’m so busy tonight” means emerdale and kardashians is on

6. You can sit doing you makeup with nothing on and be fine with it 

7. You can leave your washing up for when you can actually be bothered… Meaning your not gunna do it after a manicure.

8. You can have a mini rave to Craig David, complete with hair brush and dancing in your pants.

9. You can do a few sit ups and “yoga breathing” and call that your workout for the week.

10. You can go that extra day without washing your hair because there’s nobody there to smell it.

I hope these make you feel better if you live on your own. And if you don’t… Look what your missing out on!

Like and comment!

Lauren xx

Tuesday blues.

  Tuesday’s are worse than Monday’s. Fact. Why? You’re not at the start of the week and you’re  not even half way. 

And today has been one of those days where nothing’s gone drastically bad but you’re still craving bed and endless episodes of pll. 

Do you ever have those days when you’re like whyyyyyy? Why did I get out of bed for this? Why is this person so annoying? Why is it so dark outside its supposed to be bloody March? 

I’m trying to be positive. But I’m stuck on my own on this work placement a lot, and homesick and boyfriend-sick and.. Well you get the picture. I have a serious case of feeling sorry for myself. 

But I’m gunna get in my pajamas, divulge in a box set and grab me a huge block of chocolate on the way home. It’s okay, it’s ab day tomorrow.

If you’re in a Tuesday funk, you’re not alone! I feel your pain! 

What do you do when you need cheering up? 

Here’s to Wednesday! 

Lauren x